Note from the UK

You know how the film ‘The Hurt Locker’ is all about how war is a drug? That the ‘rush of battle is a potent and lethal addiction’?

Remember the scene at the end of the film that shows Jeremy Renner on leave walking through a supermarket bored, because there’s only one thing he knows he loves?

Picture me in Sainsbury’s and you have that exact scene.

There is a famous saying:

“No one realizes how beautiful it is to travel until he comes home and rests his head on his old, familiar pillow.”

And it is true.

Now that I have been away, I realize it’s all I want to do.

Marry me Miss Saigon!

SaigonI love Saigon, officially Ho Chi Minh City. I personally think Saigon sounds far more exotic and exciting. Like Siam, now Thailand. Burma. I must have been an imperialist in a past life.

Past the usual monotony of roadside houses, shops and restaurants, with little multicoloured plastic chairs and tables outside, on our journey from Da Lat. Saigon is big. It’s hot. Shiny financial towers to the sky. In between, bruised French Colonials.

We disembark our bus and begin to navigate the dense alleyways of District 1 in search of a hotel. We find hundreds.

We decide on the Nam Long Hotel that has just been renovated. They want US$9 a night for a triple room that’s got it all; cable TV, en-suite bathroom, air-conditioning. That new design smell. We get it for $6.

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District 1

District one is girlie bars, restaurants and souvenir shops. Electrical wires overhead.

There are always people about. The rhythm changes. Maybe the beat crowds together, faster, or it spreads out, slower, but it doesn’t stop.

Staying out all night and watching the city come to life. What I remember is a mosaic of images. Sitting in a bar amid a gush of prostitutes, some of them women. A tourist slug a cop, get dragged away by his cop pals. In the street, tourists dancing with prosties.

She’s looking at me blank, the barmaid. My smooth dialogue, she’s not getting it. Drunks with their eyes going out, heads nodding up and down like a mechanical toy, they won’t leave me alone with her. I’m explaining myself now. Looking at her eyes; puzzled and confused. Before I know it, the sun swelling against the city, together with my realisation that I’m not getting any.

There is a large Highlands Coffee on the corner of Ham Nghi Street in District 1. The Starbucks clone represents the New Vietnam. Often appearing more capitalist than communist, Vietnam is booming. Inside its air-conditioned walls, you can forgo a meal elsewhere for the price of a small latte.

In the yard outside the War Remnants Museum, American tanks and aircraft. A Huey helicopter, a Chinook, a Skyraider – one of the planes used to drop napalm canisters. The museum is one big photography exhibit. Pictures that show the long-term effects of Agent Orange. These poor souls born swollen and bug-eyed and deformed forty years after.

Go for the Requiem exhibit, made up of pictures taken by journalists killed in the war.

Take a trip to the Cu Chi Tunnels.

From the hotel balcony, I’m looking at the big towers and alleyways, and I’m thinking, I don’t want to leave this place.

The Monkey

We were waiting in a garage
In the middle of Laos
When I noticed the monkey on a leash
Behind the garage
And the leash was tied to a rusted out car
As I watched
The monkey made crazy movements and fitted
Like it had a tic
From being tied up for so long

I watched it disappear inside the car
To be alone in another place

It’s a different sadness to the monkeys in Thailand
Where they’re forced to wear diapers
And have their pictures taken with tourists
And if they don’t look
Their heads are yanked toward the camera
So that you can put the picture on Facebook and show your friends
“Look! A monkey!”
Tiny dark unhappy eyes
Right there for the whole world to see

I wish there was something I could have done
For that poor lonely monkey
Behind the garage in Laos